"i have my mother’s mouth and my father’s eyes; on my face they are still together."
My mother passed away early this morning, words at the moment are not enough to describe such a surreal and saddening feeling. My mum was perhaps the only person that was consistently here for me, she brought me and my brother into England during a war in Serbia, we started with a few bags full of simple essentials and did everything possible to ensure that we lived the full lives we live now. My mother had the biggest and strongest heart I have ever seen in a person, and the best times I have had have often been in her company. She was most definitely a fighter until the very end and was a woman who always fought for her family’s happiness. She rebelled against what she thought wasn’t right, and struggled with some of the toughest struggles, but still managed to hold herself together and to smile in the bleakest of times. I will miss my mum, more than anything, but the memories we have together are the most valuable. Some of the last words she spoke were about not having any regrets in life, I didn’t realise these were the words of a dying woman, but now I see that life is all about doing what you believe in, and definitely having no regrets. I wish that I could have taken her around the world or I wish she could see me in adulthood, I don’t know how I’ll feel in the next few days, weeks, months or even years but I know that I shouldn’t regret a single thing and just cherish what we had. I don’t believe in God, but I’m almost certain my mother will always be with us in spirit and I will try not to cry too much, because I know she wouldn’t have wanted that. This morning at the hospital was too hard for me to bear, but I thought about how the only thing my mother would insist on would be to carry on our lives as best as we can, and most importantly, to love our lives with every inch of sincerity.
I will probably be taking a little break from here, but you will probably see me popping up every once in a while, take care xoxX
fuck why did i cut off my hair i was moving into mermaid stage
lea seydoux makes me want to die a million times over
muscle rub doesn’t work
boys sleep too long
i hate student finance almost as much as ukip’s fascist viewsX